coppqueen5129 | Torn between possibilities (Reply)

bram wrote another thoughtful post today. This, in particular, got my gears whirring:

When you look at the great cultural accomplishments of humanity, what we've left behind us, what's surprising is how little it owes to "family values" and how much it owes to single borderline misanthropes living in cities (from Socrates to Beethoven). Largely, cultural advancement lay beyond the traditional deities too.

Now I'm pondering my future. Some days I feel that all I want to do is finish school, get married, have a kid or two, and have a stable but interesting and active lifestyle. Basically, become a yuppie with kids. Other times I feel I'd be okay with never marrying, never having kids, and I want to dedicate my life to study and travel. But the life I live now is closer to the former possibility. Am I too old to change? What do I have to give up to make that transition from ordinary life to a life of challenge, change and difference?

I've been so comfortable for so long, and trivial, quotidian happenings distract me from anything greater than my own, small life. It's dawning on me that I am either going to have to make sacrifices to achieve that extraordinary existence; or I need to be content with a life of mild, little pleasures.